The underpainting of this my largest painting is completed. I'm unhappy that I'll not have the time to complete this to the standard I'd like. I was over-ambitious in scale, however I've learned a lot from this painting.
I'm frustrated at my lack of output this year, trapped by too many large and unexpected projects, meaning that many of the paintings I had planned for the year remain unstarted. I've only completed about ten small paintings when my target was nearer forty. I consider only one or two good enough to show anywhere at all. Frustration frustration frustration!!
I must console myself on the positives and other achievements made. I dislike my work so much lately that the quality must be returning; relaxed confidence of ones brilliance is the best way to produce rubbish work. The giant paintings are nearly complete. Perhaps I can salvage 2011 yet.
Tomorrow I'm going to Liverpool to see an exhibition of works by Magritte. This morning I so wanted a day off. Now I'm rested and want to work twice as hard as before!
