A third day in a row of terrible sleeping patterns, awake at 3:30 until 6:30 or 7, then asleep until past 9, to awake groggy. I somewhat made up for this yesterday (and the email disruption) by working until 10pm, starting to trace over the new underdrawing. I completed this today; each stage took over an hour, there are a lot of lines here.
Yesterday, I also completed a poster for the future music event of John Lindley's called 'Compose Yourself'. In the night, I wondered which songs to perform, I think All Controlled By Someone, More, and Incomplete Version Of The Writer would be good choices, though I have many options. What is the aim? To please an audience with an instant catchy song? This is always difficult with new music. My most beloved songs are those which grew over time. Perhaps my aim should be to practice myself, push myself somehow in performance, or grow in other ways, or simply to promote the new album.
First thing today, after again waking late, I had time to do a little singing practice.
After the tracing, I made a small adjustment to my music filing. The Marius Fate Modern Game album had a separate code from the same album by myself (even though I AM Marius Fate). This had some logic, but at the same time, it is the same album, so I've re-coded The Modern Game as R32A, R32B, R32C for the three versions, and a similar change for the Masculinity Two single. This was done by 3pm, and involved quite a few changes, to my records, to my website, and to the various listings of albums.
After that I felt somewhat tired and lost. Whenever I feel overstretched, that I need to focus on one particular artform, another request appears and I find myself stretching yet again. In this case I'm now thinking of music performances, when I feel I should really be painting.
I must muse a little, but not pause for long. The rock must be rolled, but in which direction? There are certain needs and goals, some optional, and some future targets not yet imagined. Where lies my great future?
