Woke late and tired, one of those days where everything I've done seems to be terrible and where suicide feels quite justifiable. How fortunate I am to be able to ignore emotions and view these creatures with suspicion. How blessed to know that there is no heaven, no God, nothing even 1% better than our present situation.
My main job of the day was the editing and conversion of the live videos taken at Morecambe Poetry Festival. This took longer than expected, partly because the HD videos were large and each one took longer to convert to avi (for editing) and back (for uploading), so 15 to 20 minutes each alone of pure computing time. The editing itself was trivial. By 3pm, all videos had bene converted and uploaded. Most will be made public in steady drips.
I also revisited my wall cabinet plans. I wondered about wall brackets, and have decided to use simple L-shaped brackets on the side. I did consider some below, like standard shelf brackets, though that would limit crucial vertical space between cabinets. I thought about resting the cabinet on the floor, for ultimate support, but normal bookshelves (and my painting shelves!) take a lot of weight with only side-bearing screws, so this should be enough.
I also set some works aside for Galleria Balmain's new website, though I dislike online art, I need a real-world gallery. My paintings always look so much better in real life. I don't like the idea of an online art gallery, but it is better than not being seen at all, and yes, even I see the vast majority of the art I see online. Even in books, my paintings look terrible compared to seeing them in real life; this is what layered oil paintings are like. Acrylic paintings and 'digital art' look worse in real life and better on a screen, making it doubly sad and frustrating that all art competitions are now judged by remote digital photograph.
I also researched improving my art photography set up. I need more money to improve it, and money is chronically short at the moment. My OHTO MS01 pencil broke today too, bah. At least, unlike the Pentel Graphgear, it didn't snap in two; it seems to be internally broken or become blocked somehow. Either way, the lead will not advance. I'm now using a fine, if workmanlike, OHTO Horizon.
