Showing posts with label poetry. Show all posts
Showing posts with label poetry. Show all posts

Saturday, March 21, 2026

War And Nuclear Love Finalised, Poetry Night, Knutsford

Two full days. Finalised all album admin yesterday; War And Nuclear Love is now scheduled for release on 3 July 2026. Then started work on some full frame videos, incorporating the subtitles. This stage is complete.

In the evening attended the Creative Crewe Poetry Night. Carol is always a joy to meet and full of enthusiasm. If the aim of a performance evening is excitement, showmanship, and pzazz, this had none - it was as dreary as a Catholic funeral, and about half of the poems were poor simple rhymes by simple folk. No amplification meant that the poets were too quiet, many completely inaudible. Despite this, several of the poems and performances were very good. One highlight was a prose poem by Iain Chalmers who with great brilliance described a vehicle crash of books, with each genre of book; limericks, 'chic lit', medical encyclopediae; affecting the description of the event. The inability to hear the poems, and the incredible slowness and poor organisation of the night, which overran by 30 minutes, were downsides, but the warm company and meeting friends there a highlight, and perhaps this is the main reason for such events anyway.

Today, a visit to the Oil Art Advisory, which is always a joy. Delivered 6 paintings to them and collected 4 frames to fill with something.

I also realised that my 'Monsters of Spring' painting on BlueSky was flagged as a sexually explicit image, and hid it, which I found annoying. Some slight 'nudity' of a computer model true. Such labels may harm my reputation on there, I'd have happily deleted the image instantly if I'd have noticed this label. I'll avoid any hints of nudity from now on.

One small job today, updated Prometheus to allow floating point beats-per-minute. Of course the program uses floating point speed internally anyway. There are occasions when this setting may be useful, for example if you need to half the tempo of a song which is 135 BPM. This change was pretty simple to implement but isn't fully tested.

Tuesday, December 30, 2025

Christmas, Where Love Lies Lost

A quiet Christmas day with my parents and Deborah, Boxing Day spent visiting a few shops. I bought some leather gloves and some perfume shaped like a gold bar, which will make me feel rich and probably increase prosperity by psychological action. In the evening, a second Christmas meal cooked with great élan by Deborah. A former professional chef, her skills are as useful as they are enjoyable. On the 27th we went to Knutsford for the weekend, visited Elizabeth Gaskell's grave and several charity shops. We went into the Oil Art Advisory gallery and had a wonderfully warm welcome, and inspirational talk and browse at the art. The entire place looked beautiful, it was certainly something beyond a high street gallery.

We returned home to spend a few hours with my brother and his partner, and a board game in which we had to make objects from wooden pixels to be guessed by other players.

The lack of normal activity has been causing me stress, too little creativity, too much disorder, and no routine. I feel I need to throw lots away. Last night I designed a new artwork which continued one I started in summer, a strawberry with a hole in the canvas so that it can hang. I'll make a gallows for it. I came up with a title, first 'Where Love Lies Lost', then 'I Seek My Solace Where Love Lies Lost', then expanded these lines into a poem, which will be part of the artwork:

I seek my solace
Where love lies lost
I find no comfort
Where love lives most
That which I have
Lends me no pleasure
That which I lack
Extends forever

This week, work on art organisation, and archiving the year's activities. Tomorrow, my annual computer backup and clean, which will take all day.

Sunday, December 21, 2025

Thoughts on AI, On Cloud Hill

The final videos without lyrics to The Dusty Mirror were uploaded yesterday.

I took a look at some AI video tools and I suddenly felt that doing anything at all with AI would be toxic, as toxic as an association with Jeffrey Epstein or Jimmy Savile or Gary Glitter, or anything else in the sphere of the 'cancelled'. AI has elements of a drug. Song generation AI has huge appeal to those who have no musical ability, and video generation AI has appeal to those with no video capability, but perhaps one day those who use it will gain ability, and on that day they'll declare 'But guys! I can do it myself now!' but it will be too late. The 'fans' who prefer AI wouldn't want the 'real creations' and those who disliked them would not touch someone tainted by AI. The toxicity will always be there, it's like a drug in this respect, a stigma, not with respect to addiction.

I became an artist partly as a rebellion against my computer background, to avoid the digital and its falseness, fake-ness and rigidity. I've not, to date, used AI (in music, video, chat or anything else, though yes, I'd happily take credit for my 2014 album by Oldfield 1 Art By Machine as being an 'AI creation', composed using random means and a program of my own design; but this is not what most people consider AI today, that is ChatGPT-style generative AI). As AI becomes popular I'm increasingly interested in that which is not-AI, the hand made, the ersatz, and human. This is a sort of digital 'arts and crafts' movement, the arts movement from the late 19th century which emerged as a reaction to the industrial revolution. A key part of my philosophy as an artist is to do what others don't, or won't, or can't.

Art is about expressing yourself, our human selves. AI can help, but tools of any sort can get in the way of this expression. 2025 AI is more than a tool, it's more like a collaborator, and there's a difference between what we as artists want and what a (more able) collaborator suggests and we later accept. In 20th century music such things happened often, when a young star was guided (or misguided) by record companies, producers, peers, to create their sort of sound. Those artists ended up lost, rejected, dumped. I remember the Milli Vanilli controversy, where the artist didn't sing on their track, or the similar reaction to The Monkees, when accused of not playing their instruments. The taint of AI to artist will, I suspect, be the same.

This commentary already feels old. AI will rapidly change, and perhaps become a brilliant and able collaborator, but like collaborating with any genius artist, the art he/she/it makes will be his/hers/its own. If Mozart were a slave to the exact requirements ('prompts') of his patron, would Mozart or the patron be the artist? Artists have faced this exact problem for centuries, and the artists who have proven to be the best are those who damn their patrons and do as they will.

Today is the day of the winter solstice, and we've determined to visit some ancient standing stones, The Bridestones. These stones as a monument, once tomb, are over 4000 years old, though achingly sadly wrecked in the 19th century. They sit on Cloud Hill, Congleton, and I wrote this poem for the occasion which I'll read there today.

On Cloud Hill

On Cloud Hill to the sky I reach
With eyes of glassy youth and bright
I sigh for that which bones can't teach
For broken here these bones alight

We here at winter's lowest stroke
Make prayers with fleeting voice and tone
These gods are dead, yet speak their joke
From corpses of eternal stone

The season's arc is sliced in amber
Afire for souls of shiv'ring awe
The copper on this skin of sand
Will reach this mark ten thousand more

These things will look up, cold and still
Long after we turn cloud to hill

Tuesday, September 16, 2025

Morecambe Poetry Festival 2025

Arrived back yesterday from a full and delightful few days at Morecambe Poetry Festival 2025. It was certainly a memorable break. For these few days I'm pulled into a different sphere of being social. Things were as nice as last year, sweetened by reconnecting with people that we met then.

Here we are with founder Matt Panesh. Each year we intend to interview him for Ink Pantry, but can never find a spare moment (his moments are understandably precious and frenetic for these few days).

We arrived in good time on Thursday. We accidentally left the keyboard stand at Lancaster railway station, so Deb had to dash back in a taxi (it's a 20 minute journey) to collect it, which was fortunately where we left it. First lesson learned. After settling in, we, unusually, got dressed up for our performance. Normally we would do this at the venue, but perhaps it was unconscious memories of last year, parading down the sunny prom, attracting the (I must assume) awe of the denizens, made us think of making the 8-minute walk in our outfits. We left early, an hour before even the sound check, but I'd prefer to wait at the venue after everything is set up, rather than wain before. All of our equipment was in tow and heavy bags. Alas, those 8 minutes were the exact 8-minutes of a torrential downpour of rain and hail. We arrived soaked. Initial curses aside broke way to laughter. We dried up as best we could, and by the time of the performance at 10, everything was fine. Our performance went well, to plan apart from some accidental extension to 'Sunchild'.

A joy of performing first is that we can then relax into the festival proper. Our initial pre-fest event gradually became part of the festival and we found ourselves in the programme which was an unexpected delight.

The next few days were non-stop; visiting the local shops and seeing the poets in the Kings Arms, at the Library (which we visited for the first time) and stars in the amazing Winter Gardens. The Winter Gardens weren't so wintery this year, now that we'd planned to wrap up. John Hegley on the first night was a wonderful reactive performer, a natural, then the powerhouse of performance that was Luke Wright; outstanding.

Every poet of the festival granted something different. Many of the poems are comedic, fast, interspersed with humorous stories, yet, of course, there were also dark poets, ranty poets, literary poets. The latter rarely get the ovations of the comedy poets, yet perhaps that is because it's easier to get a laugh than a tear, and to be disturbed or affected in other ways isn't the recipe for applause, even if it is as powerful and affecting.

We attended an open mic at the library next day, initially to see our festival friend Kevin Brown, who held a workshop there. I signed up for the open mic upon arrival, but we had to dah away briefly to say hello to Kevin. I felt awkward at trying to do both, caught short between two events, oh to split in two, yet we returned in time to hear a few readers, speak a few poems. The amplifiers were powered by a bicycle, pedalled by Aaron Barschak, and we spoke with him at the end of the session.

We wanted to watch Kathryn Ratzko, the only poet we know from this area, so we were sure to attend. Her poems were brilliant, and curiously in a style like ours; visual, complex in emotions and words, not emphasising rhymes. It made me wonder if Cheshire poetry has a unique cadence, a lack of comedic punch more associated with Manchester. We had to leave for food before Edward Tripp, though his act, even at the start, looked brilliant. This also meant missing the Film Poem slot, which I'd have loved to see.

Our food breaks, which are now at least 90 mins, and relatively early nights meant that we were forced to miss more poets than we'd like, though we never stopped and saw as much as we could. Everything we saw was fantastic and inspiring in its own way. I didn't speak a huge amount, but enjoyed the social emergence. Of all people I spoke to I seemed to feel more of a connection to Nigel Planer. He mentioned his band, The Values. Henry Normal and Nigel were both wonderful that evening. As with most of the Winter Gardens acts, these were like semi-autobiographical evenings of anecdotes with occasional poems. I think that Michael Rosen only read one poem, for example. This did not matter, of course; these are all artists of great humanity.

Nigel Planer mentioned Brian May, as he produced the Bad News mock-rock album, just as Andy Hayward mentioned last week that he's working with Brian, and by coincidence, Dr May was performing live as part of the Last Night of the Proms on Saturday. Brian May has appeared in threes. There has to be a poem in that.

Morecambe is a unusual place, extraordinarily friendly. Shop prices are cheap. Many aspects of culture and architecture don't seem to have moved on in 40 years. It was interesting to see it bask in last year's sun, and as a something like a ghost town in this year's rain.

Now I'm back and catching up with many things. Today I've typed up full notes on the trip, done a litlte more organisation on the Sprot album, connected with many of the poets on social media, and prepared files for some future videos of our performance. I've also restrung my guitar for tomorrow's Good Vibrations, restrung new shoes (as mine decided to fall apart while on holiday), tried in vain to repair my glasses which also broke spectacularly on the first day, so I couldn't see anyone beyone 2 metres. Plus 4 or 5 other things. Onwards to the rest of the week.

Wednesday, September 10, 2025

GSTG Launch, Morecambe Preparations

The book launch last night went to plan. Met a screenwriter, Andrew J Hayward, who has a few interesting projects in the pipeline. Perhaps we can find time to collaborate on something. We're up to 11 artists for the Christmas album, Christmas Tails.

Today, final rehearsal and packing for Morecambe. Onwards to the festival!

Sunday, September 07, 2025

Prayer For Order

Prayer for Order

Life is about order, organisation, neatness, cleanliness
Order makes us resilient
More organised forms are more resilient to crises
Stability should proliferate its stability

Information should be preserved
Archives should be maintained
To preserve accuracy and efficiency of storage
Efficiency of recall

Life seeks to organise chaotic elements
Life stores information in stable structures
Life endures attack so that ordered elements survive and proliferate
Life endures attack so that choatic elements are destroyed

Truth is more stable than lies
Truth is that which is proven to be true
By trial, by enduring
By surviving a challenge

Friday, August 22, 2025

Mouse Lamp, Claire Luce 3, Blockx Mars Red and Natural Umber

A slow day yesterday. Confirmed submission of Another Violet Night, this will release on October 31st, and painted a mouse lamp to look like an actual white mouse. The plain lamp was an ugly black resin. I also shaded a study for the cat in 'Can There Be A Refuge' painting.

Today, re-drew a Claire Luce portrait, with shading this time. It seems that a shaded outline works well, and my 0.5mm pencil seems better for this than my usual 0.3mm line drawing pencil. The likeness is much more easily checked and adjusted this way.

Was happily helped to deliver two paintings to Tarporley for the weekend community exhibition there. New paints arrived. Blockx Mars Red is instantly beloved. A fine and powerful red, more violet than Venetian Red, but much redder than Mars Violet. Mars Red and Mars Yellow Orange would make perfect flesh I suspect. Oddly, I use mars violet and light red, and rarely ever involve venetian for flesh, using the still beloved venetian for other 'general red' use (often for my signature). I can see the Mars Red replacing this, especially as the Harding Venetian Red is very fluid, almost watery, like many of his paints. Blockx Natural Umber is indeed a raw umber, rather neutral and green-shaded compared to the Michael Harding version I use in every painting. Blockx Natural is very close in hue to Winsor and Newton Raw Umber Green Shade, though more opaque and a little more granular. I'm less certain if this will replace my invaluable Harding Raw Umber, but I will give it a try when my Harding tube runs out. Every Blockx colour I've used has proved to be lovely, they make the best oil paints.

Also signed a new contract with Galleria Balmain today, and heard that I have at least one poem accepted in the Morecambe Poetry Festival Anthology 2025.

Tuesday, July 22, 2025

Slam,. Superman Sunshine

Took part in a poetry slam in the brilliant space of Percy's Bar in Whitchurch. it was nice to see a few old faces from the Nantwich poetry days, a time shortly before 2020 and Covid struck. I've barely met with poets since, and barely written much poetry, but songs have become a new focus. The 'slam' element, the competition was not relevant really. Winning such things are a matter of writing jokes or other happy and simple rhymes to please an audience; never dark, deep, thoughtful, or quiet; but for me this event was an open mic, a chance to hear new poets and perform on a good stage, with a delightful 3-minute limit (oh that all open mics were like this).

I felt like an outsider there, a distant moon to the planet of the Nantwich poets. Sometimes nothing more than the simple circumstances of seating and occasion prevents partaking in the social.

My sleep was long and shallow until nearly 10am. I completed more audio admin work related to yesterday's new releases, and created a new artist listing on a Japanese website called Top Music Japan.

The day has flown. I've spent too long trying to get Superman Sunshine to work as a song. I've re-written the words and changed the chords, but it's still not as good as the other Donovan song. I'm highly unlikely to ever record this, or any of the songs I've written especially for these special live nights (I may already have a full album's worth!) yet I still want to make these songs the best I can, so I'll try try to work on it. Of course, I have less that 24-hours to the performance day...

The words so far:

Superman Sunshine

Sipping from a coffee cup and wishing night away
Goodbye stars, see you yesterday
Here's a new hero carving up a line
Giving me a sign
Telling me it's gonna be fine

It's superman
It's superman sunshine

making a flight
hotter than a beam of kryptonite
harder than a diamond stone
he cannot be broken

Standing on a broken beach and staring at the sky
See that ray, all alone and high
Is he like me or is he divine
Giving me a sign
Telling me it's gonna be fine

It's superman
It's superman sunshine

making a flight
hotter than a beam of kryptonite
harder than a diamond stone
he cannot be broken

Superman
I'm superman
Superman sunshine

Monday, July 21, 2025

Music Admin, Poetry Slam

A day of music admin. Transferred 3 more albums, plus the new 'All Controlled By Someone' single, and the 2025 remaster of The End And The Beginning for a 22 August release. I'd prefer a longer pause before that major relaunch, but the new album and its single also clutter up the release line. I really need to finish transferring the remaining 16 albums or so to clear everything, and I'd perhaps like another new EP about war. I wish I lived near Tor so we could collaborate and communicate more on such things.

About 50% of my albums still need sheet music, and I need to reorganise the sheet music I have. Many albums lack videos of any sort. It would at least be nice to have more for The End And The Beginning. The only tracks with videos are two instrumentals and the song 'A.I.', which has my 2009 vocals. The videos do not at all indicate the sort of music on the album, which is 80s electro-pop filled with Tor's amazing (and Alison Moyet-esqe) vocals. I feel I can't really make high quality videos without Tor being in them, but perhaps I can make some animated videos of some sort, something that is better than nothing. That would at least help showcase his considerable 2009 talent (I'm certain he's an even better singer today).

'Challenger' took 45 minutes to compile today using FFMpeg. Argus could probably animate it much more quickly. I may have even been able to duplicate and re-animate the entire video in one day, and make it better looking to boot, but it's interesting to see what is perhaps the origin of this sort of 'lights matching the notes' video. There's an old blog post on here all about the making of this video using AviSynth.

Tonight I'm taking part in a poetry slam. I don't really write 'slammy' poems, which are typically amusing and full of rhymes, more like stand-up comedy than literature, but with even more of a 'look at me' cry of desperation. I must remember that if Shakespeare were to enter, even with his 500-year-old poetry, he would certainly win. It's nice to be invited to a poetry event. I've neglected poetry since 2020, that year of a shift in my art. This might be my first participation on a poetry event in 5 years.

Thursday, June 26, 2025

Good Vibrations, Another Violet Night Mastering, Pariah Teabags

Yesterday, the 4-weekly music playing in the library, a delight. Somewhat hellish at home with work in the house, and my brother filling a room, a brief visit before my aunt's lonely funeral today. Deb is just recovered from her short illness.

I've spent today mastering Another Violet Night, awaiting a proof, then basic working out the tracks and lengths, and the design of the lyrics book and the iTunes Digital Booklet. I'm tired of the music now, eager to move on. I wrote a poem about our pariah tea; herbal, gifted at Christmas, untouched.

Pariah Teabags

Exotic herbal teas
gifted and received each
Christmas, and forever
languishing in the cupboard's
vault, in hope and despair

If hell is to be unwanted
hell is there

Oh to steep
as we were promised
when green-tipped, plucked
dried with comrades
to await, and wait

If hell is to be unwanted
hell is our fate

Fennel, rose, mint julep
chamomile, hemp's must;
sage, lavender,
forgotten mugwort, burdock
bitter bitter green

Unwanted horrors
Untried, unseen

Steep for 3 minutes: no
Add sugar to taste: never
Swamp smells, no taste
Good for you: no
Sartre? No

Our life is Camus
Sans brew

Sunday, October 06, 2024

Until I Was Nearly Dead

Until I Was Nearly Dead

Until I was nearly dead
I didn't know the meaning
I didn't know the feeling
Of it all
As it hit me
Like a hard slice of bread
In the kitchen damp five in the morning
Like I said, I was nearly dead

But by then it was too late
All too late
Growing cold on the plate
All too late
Too late

But as least I tried
As I cried to the sky
In my head;
As I've said, and sighed
I didn't know the meaning
I didn't know the feeling
Until I was nearly dead
Nearly dead
Nearly dead

Friday, August 23, 2024

Lights, Enamels, Noise Station, Morecambe Anthology

A busy day after painting. I had to adapt my lights for tomorrow's photography, drilling new holds for lower lighting, then I experimentally adapted the bolt for one light to remove the thread. This involved Polymorph and a plastic tube of the right diameter and seemed to work.

Then, a trip to buy some Humbrol enamel paints for the Kratos hinges. These really need to be dry and complete tonight. Now one has to be (or look) 25 or older to buy them. I use to paint with these as a child, and the experience was really useful. When home, painting the hinges with this paint.

Then I had time to start an update to Noise Station again. I'd like to update it in a week or two, to make the licence explicit and will use a Creative Commons licence. The next update will add a graph for the modulator/sample display, which is perhaps one of the most useful elements which is currently lacking. It's quite some work though.

In other news, I've heard that one of my poems has made it into the Morecambe Poetry Festival Anthology. I hardly ever enter poetry competitions, so this result is a happy surprise.

Wednesday, March 13, 2024

Tuners, FIG Rehearsal, John Lindley

The day started by finding a tuner to add to my audio system, which I've ordered but am yet to test. Guitar tuners are cheap and common, but this chromatic tuner is designed for any instrument, and (crucially) has a line input, so I can attach it to the output of my audio system to view the exact pitch of any sound played by the computer. This would help with guitar in particular, though it's a pity that the tuner can't be exclusively attached to the input and exclude the output. I can tune the guitar before playing of course, but the intonation, the tuning over frets, is rarely perfect, and it can be useful to find the exact tuning of any sound being played.

When buying any audio equipment I have a simple principle: if it will improve things by 1%, or even have a chance of doing so, it is worth buying. Over time, those %1s will add up. A new tool can by an easy way to get better at something, and over the years some have been transformational, from my 'Chicken Pick' guitar picks, to my keyboards, to my gold coat. At times money is wasted on useless gizmos, but such spending rarely, if ever, makes results worse.

At 11, Deb arrived for a Fall in Green rehearsal for Saturday's performance in Winsford. This will have an unusual set-up, just the Reface DX, and a Zoom recorder for some backing tracks.

Then, off to Congleton Library to see a John Lindley poetry performance, the pre-event event of the weekend's Congleton Unplugged Festival. A great show, it's his rhythm and style which gives the performance panache, but that aside the poetry itself is outstanding. It was lovely to see a few friends there too.

Thus the day has flown on these practical and social matters.

The weather is annoyingly unpredictable, except for the certainty of rain showers at some point in each day. Intermittent showers are forecast for the next 10 days, so work on the mural is hereby postponed. Painting a wall of solid colour is quite possible in light rain, but with a white on black design like this, even one water-drop on the wet paint will cause a streak, even discounting problems with mask adhesion, temperature conditions for the paint etcetera. I, and David, await a dry week in this exceptionally wet March.

Wednesday, February 14, 2024

Every Joy's Price

Every Joy’s Price

Every joy’s price is measured in pain
Every smile's bought with a frown
The deeper the down, the higher the height
The more terrible the darkness
The more brilliant the light

Sunday, December 10, 2023

Help I Cry

I wrote a new poem (or song lyrics) last night and completed it today.

Help I Cry

Help I cry to the no-one in my head
to God, the man who died
as a dream of you, of me,
of a calm summer sea
when reality is rain and dread.

Help I think to my sinking cells
and my cells say sorry
to you, for I cannot,
I must wait for the rain of self
to stop its helpless pelt.

For there is no help.
There is no help.
There is no help.

Wednesday, September 13, 2023

Between

Between the atoms and the stars we span.
Between the whisper and the roar.
Between the grass seed and the gods lie man.
Between the never and the evermore.

Thursday, August 31, 2023

Seamus Night

A steady day. Filed some of the existing Prometheus sequences, among other art administration jobs. The quick shift from music to mural will shift to something else soon. I need to pause to rest and plan.

It was the anniversary of the death of Seamus Heaney yesterday and John Lindley hosted a poetry evening in his honour in Congleton. It was lovely to catch up with our friends there. The company was, like the poetry, good, inspiring, enriching. I'm blessed to know such people.

Monday, December 12, 2022

Snowdrop, Jiggy Stardust Dream

I went to bed at 10:22, or so, too cold and dark to work late. I woke at 3am and lay I awake. I wrote a poem:

I see cracks of pepper birds
in my mind's sky
yet under this frosted sea
I burn
romancing the snow to cry
and its flakes dream of the ocean
and the crows become angels.

And this morning, updated it:

Snowdrop
I see cracks of birds in my mind's sky
yet beneath this frosted down, I burn;
teasing the snow to cry
awake, into an ocean's dream
of crows summer'd into angels.

I remained awake until about 7:30, then slept and dreamt of David Bowie. I was with a man who made sets for music shows, and he was making a new 'rocket' or 'crucifix' like thing for a new Jiggy-Stardust style show. The resulting rig looked like a wooden X or sorts, make from webs of wood like windmill sails, though the two legs parts were closer and had huge firework rockets behind. It was brown and painted with white an orange logo in the centre, where David would stand. He (dressed as Jiggy) climbed up to test it and he loved it. There were a few other people around, other people who were part of the show or crew, as was I. The contraption was in my house, or a larger version of it, where the rooms were huge, much more like artist studio or workshop rooms. I started to watch a version of 'Antz' the 3D animated film, but it was very different and full of startling scenes. In one scene, a train of giant stream trains tore down a London street, smashing through the facades of the white, Georgian buildings. I shouted David to come and see, that he was missing many amazing sights. I rewound the video, but perhaps too far and the train scene didn't seem to appear.

I awoke at 10am to a 12.1 degree room. It's misty today and very cold.

Sunday, October 02, 2022

Rilke Translations

Today, I started by translating some Rilke poems for our album, which was a fascinating experience. I'm blessed that Ursula K Le Guin translated 'The Flower of Farewell', as this meant the original German was online, so I've translated that and 'Let This Darkness Be a Bell Tower'. It's amazing just how different each translation is. Poetry translation is far more like art than science. For Bell Tower, for example, here's the first stanza:

Original:

Stiller Freund der vielen Fernen,
fühle, wie dein Atem noch den Raum vermehrt.
Im Gebälk der finstern Glockenstühle laß dich läuten.
Das, was an dir zehrt,

Google translate says:

Silent friend of the many distances,
feel your breath increasing the space.
In the entablature of the dark belfry, let yourself be rung.
what feeds on you

Joanna Macy and Anita Barrows translation is:

Quiet friend who has come so far,
feel how your breathing makes more space around you.
Let this darkness be a bell tower
and you the bell. As you ring,

Another online version I saw:

Silent friend, of plenty distance,
feel how your breath fills the room.
in the face of the clocks, so real rings
the thing that makes your doom

For me, the 'many distances/great distance' is important, and Silent is a better word than Quiet. In the second line, there are many images and references, already the flow of a bell pushing out and in, but also a widening out psychologically, a letting go and breathing out. For these lines I decided on:

Silent friend of many distances,
feel, your breath extends your space.

I chose 'extend' because of the rhyme, perhaps a poetic fancy; the Fernen/fühle is a rhyme lost in translation already. Next, I much more favour Google's translation, but wanted to set the atmosphere too, so I chose:

In the shadows of the belfry, let yourself be rung.
That, which feeds you,

And for the rest I translated as follows:

becomes a strength beyond food.
Change in and out.
What is your greatest pain?
If drinking is bitter, become wine.

On this night
from the overflowing magic, be at your senses' crossroads,
sense their strange encounter.

And if the earth shuns you,
say to the silent earth: I flow.
Say to the rushing water: I am

'Change in and out' has so much of bell in it! The 'overflowing magic' line was the most difficult, it is something of a mouthful, but this matches the original closely. I used "senses' crossroads" because I didn't want to repeat the word 'senses'.

After this, I started on some music for another Rilke poem, 'The Flower of Farewell'. I started with a guitar inspired by The Coastliners song by Genesis, but the music is more relentless, pounding, constant, like the flow of pollen in the poem. At the climax the music collapses into a piano solo that reflects the main Salomé theme from the start of the album; so this is a perfect last track for the project.

The music was recorded and completed today, apart from Deborah's vocals.

Monday, September 19, 2022

The Queen Poem

Awake in the night, I wrote a poem about the queen.

The Queen

HRH RIP.
Elizabeth two, Charles three.
Filling up the BBC;
not caught dead on ITV.

Still on duty, still on call.
On parade Westminster Hall.
A million hopes along the mall.
God has saved her after all.